I am better than yesterday!
Backtrack a tad: Read something on Monday over at Jack Sh*t.... it hit me. I'd forgotten his #2 rule of weight loss: eat a little healthier. Yes, I've been eating less, but I'm not eating much healthier. [Deep breath]. Ok, so I cut out a lot of junk, but I WAS relying on peanut butter and chocolate chips to help fill my tummy at night so I can sleep. (Yeah, right, like I sleep.)
Even tho I have cooked and have lots of wonderful quick things for me to eat just sitting in the freezer and waiting, I was eating too much pb and choc. WAY too much. I just couldn't seem to stop myself, or I'd forget what I was doing, and suddenly realize the jars are in front of me, open, with the tastes in my mouth.
I appreciated all of the comments yesterday, and support. I needed someone to listen, and you did. You helped me with your thoughtfulness and advice, and I could feel it.
So ... I sat and thought. And wrote some more (for my eyes only, sorry). Looked at the numbers. Looked at the jars. Looked in the full-length mirror. And came to the realization: **I** am more important than getting a taste of junk.
Then I got up, gave myself a HUGE kick in the butt, and moved the jar of peanut butter (Skippy Natural, BTW, or sometimes organic pb from Vitamin Cottage) and jar of dark chocolate chips to a kitchen pantry that I don't go into as much. Because it has wheat products in it (for Hubby). I couldn't throw it out because I hate wasting money.
Oh, and the jars have sticky notes on them, and on them: GOAL and HEALTH
Every time I got the craving yesterday, I drank some more iced-tea. Or did some laundry. Or watered the plants. Or exercycled! Or something else on my huge to-do list. I got a LOT done yesterday! And moved a LOT!
My eating/drinking yesterday was this:
B: decaf coffee, one-minute gluten-free raspberry muffin
L: caffeine tea, oriental chicken quiche, one-minute-muffin
........with butter, garlic and cheese
D: switched to decaf tea, plus V8 and string cheese
I know, I didn't eat enough. I went the other way, but after the calorie count from Tuesday and the resulting horrible number on the scale yesterday morning, I just couldn't make myself eat much dinner. Trust me, it's NOT a permanent thing. I have today all planned out (hmmm... spicy chili).
This is something I need. My body AND my future AND my family need this.
This getting-healthy thing.
I will succeed!!
Anyway: goals and progress:
FIRST: Changing second goal in my Hot 100 goals:
-from EXERCYCLE 3 hours a week
-to be EXERCISING 5 Hours each week
Now, progress on my Hot 100 goals:
(1) 185 pounds (last Thursday's weight: 212.0): today's weight: 209.6 (2.4 lbs lost*)
(2) exercising 5 hrs/wk: exercycled 30 minutes + other exercises 3 hours
(3) write/finish 3 e-books: some writing
* This is what I weighed Tuesday morning but then I had the pb/choc attack. Everything I did yesterday (a little caffeine, exercising, drinking tea, flax/fiber muffins) helped me get back there and now I can really say: I'm FINALLY out of the 210s. Whew!
Today is also measurement day:
1/26/09: 299.0 lbs
6/26/10: 264.6 lbs
7/20/10: 247.0 lbs
8/18/10: 237.2 lbs
9/21/10: 219.0 lbs
10/21/10: 209.6 lbs ... Total Loss of 89.4 pounds
Under Breasts at Chest:
10/21/10: 38.5" ... Total Loss of 6.0 inches
Rite Upper Arm:
10/21/10: 15.0" ... Total Loss of 3.25 inches
Rite Upper Thigh:
10/21/10: 23.0" ... Total Loss of 6.0 inches
Hips/Stomach Just Below BellyButton:
10/21/10: 48.0" ... Total Loss of 10.0 inches
Then, in August 2010, I started measuring a few other parts of me:
Waist, 1" above belly button:
10/21/10: 40.5" ... Total Loss of 6.0 inches
10/21/10: 15.0" ... Total Loss of 1.25 inches
10/21/10: 11.25" ... Total Loss of 1.0 inch
p.s.: I'm NOT giving up chocolate ... it will always be a part of my life. BUT when I can go back to eating just one tablespoon a day, I'll add it back in to my day.
Yet another delay - I honestly started back on my writing, while preparing to get the house ready to sell and monitoring my son's epilepsy ... then it happened. Another lump ...