DAILY SUPPORT GROUP TIME:
Yesterday I posted about eating a whole cake the day before. I appreciate the comments. I really do. And I thought about them. But, well, I did it again. Except this time it was a chocolate turtle cake with buttercream chocolate frosting. Another whole entire cake, WalMart discounted to $4.80.
I don't know what's gotten into me. I was doing so great. Losing weight. Feeling great. Then boom, situations happened, I stopped caring about me and my health, and now I've put back on 23 pounds. YES, since Nov 1 or so, I've put back on that much weight.
And between the chocolate and the weight gain, I'm severely, hugely depressed. Dealing with my problem marriage. My Kid's situation. My family. My finances. My writing. My health.
Nothing seems to matter.
I can't focus on anything.
I just want to sleep.
And wake up thin.
I know I'll get back to it. I took a "break" last year, remember? But I didn't gain last time. This time, I did. Rather, I am.
Just wanna cry.
God. How depressing this post is.
Today is a new day. Right? Do-Overs... isn't that what you said, Yum Yucky? And Miz-Fit... another 24 hours. One moment at a time. Lanie: yes, I would NOT have put that in front of my kid so why on earth did I get it for me? Cathy, please don't follow my example ... nothing good can come from a gorge/binge.
That's what I did. I binged. Even when I told someone I was in the midst of it, and she said "stop", I didn't. My response? "Can't leave this uneaten 1/4th of a cake just sitting here."
Today is another day. A new day. One moment, and one choice at a time.
Edited at 8:52 a.m.: Back on track. Read about it tomorrow!
Yet another delay - I honestly started back on my writing, while preparing to get the house ready to sell and monitoring my son's epilepsy ... then it happened. Another lump ...