Why I Started This Blog

I need help. I've fought my weight since I was 17 years old (about 30 years ago). I've had a few years where I got to a decent and healthy weight but they have been few and far between.

The picture to the left was the last one I really allowed to be taken. I was 267 pounds on my wedding day, April 13 2007. I had the kid try to hide me, but sure didn't cover my double chin, did it?

My Tween-Child was Born in 1996, and I've been steadily gaining weight ever since. Now, not only am I one pound away from 300 pounds (my highest weight ever) but I can barely breathe, have sleep apnea, insomnia, major migraines, and many more other health problems.

I don't want to lose weight just to get skinny. THAT's never gonna happen, anyway. But I want to get healthy. I want to walk the dog and not be panting more than the dog. I want to go hiking and camping. I want to sit on the toilet or a chair without breaking it. I want the tires on my car to last longer between air-fillings. And I wanna get pregnant.

Mentally, I KNOW what I'm supposed to do. I know how to eat healthy. Problems are:

• I am a very picky eater. I don't like cooked vegetables, although I like them raw.


• I love chips and dip, sandwiches and burgers, cakes, chocolate and candy.


• I am usually in so much pain (migraines, legs, muscles, etc.) that I can't get out of bed. I work at my computer there.

Plan: I will ride my TweenChild's exercycle 4-5 times a week. I will reduce my intake of chocolate and other sweets. I will drink either water, juice or herbal caffeine-free tea. I will eat less processed and fast-food. I will cook more, especially beans and rice.

Don't expect me to run (not with these knees) or pick up a sport. That's so not me.

I'll try to update this blog daily with what I'm eating and doing. Meanwhile, if people could help me by encouragement, I'd appreciate it.

So... today's weigh-in: 299 pounds.

Ouch.